It's been almost six years since I joined dA.
I've seen it grow as a site, a community, a company and an addiction.
I've grown as well, and perhaps grown out of it.

There are so many artists here that are worth more they are given credit for (as we all know, blah blah blah), and yet I cannot seem to be active anymore. It's been two years since I was realy into it, and yet I refuse to delete my account. It's more than nostalgia, it's my wish to create something beautiful. I think that by keeping this account I let myself believe I'm doing something.

I'm going to stop telling myself this - if something happens, it happens. None of this "I'm an artist" bullshit - I'm not. I am struck by beauty with same force as running head first into a train, and know it's something that I'm not going to give up easily. I am producing lots of work for art class, but there's little I want to share. Little that isn't just for a grade.

This isn't an excuse, more just a shrug of the shoulders.
I do hope to make beautiful things, but currently I'm more into music.
We'll see.